Today I had what I like to call a mental health day. I have not really gotten many of these so they are really special! My dh stays home and I get the day to myself to do what ever I want! I went to the library, Food City and Wal-mart. I am kind of boring , I know. But I really had a great time. The thing that I remember most is the silence and how much I loved it and miss it! I remember when I was single being so lonely I wanted a family of my own so bad and I was LONELY. I remember driving in my car and being so unhappy because I was so lonely. Well, 9 years later I am spending the day by myself and loving it. I miss that quietness, getting to be by myself, and choosing what I want to do without asking anyone and just worrying about my needs and nobody else's. So, why was I so unhappy and lonely back then? Hmm? Now, I miss that and want it back. Now don't get me wrong, I still love my family and would not trade them for the world, but I just find it interesting that what I had and thought I did not want anymore that now I miss it some days.
Now I am really kind of tired! I stayed up most of the night with my youngest last night. He has pink eye and he got some shots yesterday. Keeping his fever down was hard last night and it just made him feel bad. He also has this terrible swollen red eye that just looks nasty. I wish I knew where he picked it up from because none of the other kids have it. I hope this medicine that the doctor gave me does the trick and that he sleeps better tonight!
Saturday, January 12, 2008
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3 comments:
i am glad that you had some time to yourself today! that is great!
good luck with the sick kid! hope feels better soon!
I wonder if you felt lonely because you wanted what you thought the world wanted for you? Just a thought. However, I can totally relate to wanting something that you didn't know you did!
Glad you got some alone time today.
You know, I felt the same way when I was single and now like you, I relish my "alone" time. Glad you had some time to yourself. Stop over when you get the chance, there is an award for you there.
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