Deep Thoughts Thursday

Well, after reading some blogs about people with tough decisions, I decided to ask myself the question, What has been the toughest decision you have ever made in your life?" After giving this some thought, I thought of a few, but one stood out and I want to share that with you today.

In 2004, we found out that we were going to have another baby. This was really good news after trying to have another baby w/o success for 5 years. We went to the doctor when I was about 6 weeks because I was feeling so bad. They sent us to ultrasound first and I will never forget that moment! The technicin asked us if we had twins in our family. I said yes but you are not telling me we are having twins. I have twin sisters. Then I looked and saw two dots. Yes, we were going to have twins. At about 5 months, my doctor recommended moderate bedrest and suggested that I stop working because my blood pressure and the stress levels at work were just not working for me. So, I went on Family Medical Leave and stayed off work until October of that year. My dh and I had been talking about me staying home with the babies and not going back to work at all. This was a very hard decision because my job paid the most money and provided great benefits for our family including medical benefits. I continued working after my first baby and felt great about that decision, even though now I got some issues with what my son got out of daycare! So, after lots of prayer and deep thought we decided that I would stay home with the twins. I remember being so worried about how things would work out and a scripture from the BOM kept coming to me. When Nephi was going to get the plates and basically (I not great at quoting) but if we do the things we are asked, Heavenly Father will prepare a way for us to accomplish that thing. We have been counseled as mothers to stay home if at all possible and the Lord had given us twins so I went on faith that my HF would prepare a way for me to stay home and take care of twins. Well, somehow that has all happened. I really have not had a need that has not been taken care of. Even some of my wants I still get to have. I really do enjoy staying home, but I do miss my old job tons. I remember the going away party that my office gave me, I cried so hard that night! I do not think I will ever forget that. But I have had the confirmation that I am doing what I am suppose to do. Believe me when I say it has been a sacrafice for my family for me to stay home, but I know that I am doing the right thing. I know my children are being taken care of and I am happy!

So, that is the hardest decision that I have ever had to make in my life.
Want to have a deep thought Thursday with me and share the hardest decision you have ever had to make in your blog? I'd love to read about it.