After a recent post about my first date, people asked questions about how I had the nerve to ask my now husband on a first date and how I asked him to marry me. I have been thinking about this for several days and I remember how my whole body was shaking when I asked him both times. I guess that gave me a good idea how men really feel. Here is my answer:
I moved to the town I current live in for a job. I moved away from everyone I knew. I was really lonely. So, I started praying for answers to what I should do. I had several ideas and I would bring them to my Heavenly Father and ask him if that was what I should do. None of the answers were in the positive from my Heavenly Father, so after not knowing what to do, I started doing some of the things that I really got the answer that it was not right because I felt like it was right. But as it usual happens, everything went wrong with the things I was trying to do. After those bad experiences, I started praying harder to learn what I was suppose to do, but I still was not getting an answer, at least not one that I wanted. I was really depressed for about two months. I met my now husband at a single activity at church. Every time I was around him, I got this feeling like I should go and ask him out, but I was way too scared, so I prolonged my misery! Anyways, I still prayed and felt so sure that I was suppose to ask this guy out, that finally one day in the church parking lot I did. I continued to pray through our dating and got the feeling early on that this was the one for me! I asked him questions to try to get him to talk about marriage, hoping he would ask me, but he never did. I even talked to some of his friends and they even told me it would be a long time before he would be ready for anything like marriage. So, one day we were at my apartment talking about something related to marriage and I just came out and asked him if he would marry me? I told him that I wanted him to be the father of my children. He just started crying. I thought to myself then, how am I going to get out of this. I finally looked at him and said something like I know I asked you to marry me, but you still have to ask me. He got down on his hands and knees and asked me. It was a very special time for me to look back on. We started planning our wedding that night! So, I found my happiness and I think that if I would have to say what led me to doing those things I would have to say answers from prayers gave me the strength! I hope this answers your question!